Bumped into S & his wife

J and I bumped into S and his wife whilst walking in the park on Sunday afternoon (it was such a nice day). They only live a few minutes away so we do occasionally see each other in the street or at the shops, but it is unusual for us all to be together of course. The men talked about football whilst we sat in the park cafe and chatted about the children, school, holidays etc. Afterwards we walked home together (they live just around the corner).

When I first started "seeing" S I felt simply terrible whenever I'd meet his wife. We'd known each other for years from when the kids first started going to school with each other. J and S always got along well with each other, but when things first started happening with S, it was just so difficult for me to try and act naturally with her. As the kids eventually moved off to different schools we see less of each other now anyway, and although I don't have quite the same feelings of terrible guilt that I used to have, I do still feel awkward on the few occasions we do bump into each other. J used to tease me about it, but soon realised how difficult it was for me, so now he says nothing . . .

I got a text from S later that evening telling me how lovely I looked and when could we get together again. I'm always worried about texting him back (especially at weekends) so haven't responded.

Back to work this morning and I got a call from M as I walked from the station. Like S, he knows the only time I can really talk freely on the phone is when I'm on my way into work, or on my way home. M wanted to get together this week as well but I reminded him that the children are still on holiday from school and I wouldn't be able to manage it. And anyway I've arranged to take the day off on Friday to take my daughter shopping for clothes for an upcoming school trip away.

So both my men will have to wait . . .

Best wishes - Edith