Knowing how lucky I am . . .

Went jogging with the girls yesterday morning for our first run in a month.

With all the usual chat and moaning about their husbands and lack of excitement and “performance” . . . and gossip about the latest scandals of friends or acquaintances . . . it just makes me realise again how lucky I am to share such a wonderful relationship and “lifestyle” with J.

Of course I receive lots of emails to my diary from wives (and even more from husbands) who say their marriage is boring and unfulfilling and any sexual intimacy or excitement has completely disappeared from their relationship. That their partners no longer initiate or want sex . . . or it is “demanded” in a rush and over in minutes with no excitement or enjoyment.

But when I hear similar comments from my own close friends it is much more poignant and, on the one hand, makes me feel sorry for them . . . especially as I feel I can’t exactly “open up” and reveal our own exciting times . And on the other hand, I find myself returning home feeling quite elated and aroused . . . and then disappointed as I cuddled and kissed with J, that he was on his way out to take my son to his football for the afternoon!!!

During our run, and when we stopped for our usual coffee at the end, I felt guilty for feeling so “smug”, wanted to say (to one of my more vocal jogging friends in particular) that perhaps “they” should be trying harder, or doing something different in their relationship (no I DON’T mean having an affair), but I had to bite my lip and just say nothing or shrug my shoulders in agreement and just say “yes I know what you mean”.

Sad, and silly, that we seem to make our own relationships so complicated and difficult !!!!

Best wishes - Edith
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